Struggle Within My Heart
(H. – heart / M. Mind)

H. I love him so much. What a gift if he could only love me back.

M. Well he doesn’t, now does he?

H. He used to tell me he did once.

M. Yeah, and look for how much for how long.

H. It’s not his fault. I wouldn’t believe him.

M. Well if he loved you, you would not have been able to push him away. He would have loved you no matter what.

H. But I pushed him away.

M. No love can be pushed away by being loved. Anyone who loved you would have been ecstatic and thanking God that you finally loved them back. You could have never had too much contact.

H. I still love him. No matter what, faults and all, I love him for who he is and just as he is. I just can’t have him.

M. Trust me. You’re better off. He can not hurt you or promise you the morning. You won’t have to worry about waking up to a broken heart.

H. Yes. You are right and so wise. Just please tell him I love him and that I’ll never stop loving him.

M. Now what good would that do your already broken heart trying to mend?

H. Nothing that would interest him. You are right again. I’ll just keep him in my prayers forever. God, please take care of him and keep him happy. If he loves you, I know he will be. Amen! Love Gail (Your Child)

2-1998
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. A heartache that could have been avoided by obeying God to begin with. But it’s never too late to do the right thing with God! He’s waiting patiently and excitedly every day for those He loves! No matter how long the wait! He will never turn you away! ❤