Crack & Crumble, We’re Falling Apart

It feels so cold when a friend hurts you,
turns against you and leaves.
It’s heartbreaking to know this is
the same friend who knows what you believe.
What would make a heart crack,
crumble, and fall apart?
Or maybe you were so sadly mistaken
to have believed they ever had a heart.
Why would my friend leave me
after wanting to know me so bad?
He swore he was forever and promised
to try to never make me sad.
So why would he break my soul
if he knew he was a key
to a way of opening up and trusting,
which brought me friends who make me happy?

12-17-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Continuing Losses

Everybody is going to grow and move.
They’re finding their way to live.
They’re not even concerned with me,
or all the love I willingly give.
They’re going to carry on in life
and never see me again.
I’m so sad to know I’m going to lose
my dearest and closest friends.
I can’t go on knowing I’ll lose
every person I come to know.
I know we must live our lives,
but why must everyone have to go?
Cry, cry, and cry inside
to know they’re going away.
It’s like they’re dying over and over
when I need them most to stay.
I want to live forever with them
and share our lives together.
I can’t go on loving others
knowing no one loves forever.
It’s just so cruel to know that life
can steal our every friend.
It makes me want to make my move
and hope my world will end.

4-21-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Away From The World

So cold, I feel inside.
Alone, away from the world.
I’m constantly surrounded by others,
yet feel so isolated.
How can I relate my thoughts
to concerns of others?
Depression is so nasty,
but so comforting in a way.
Why do I feel so sorry for myself?
No one could do anything
about my problems,
except myself.
That’s why I try so much harder
to make sure I never learn
to eternally dwell in self-pity.
Thank you, God, for love, life, and reality.
You are all three
and I’m glad to be a part of each.

9-15-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

A Battered Beaten Soul

My friendships are failing.
My jobs are failing.
My inner soul is dying.
I’m just afraid
to try again
in fear I may be crying.
My heart was given agony,
my soul a painful tear.
I want to give
my love away,
but love is too much to bear.
Will you ever understand
why I walk away
when I really want to stay?
I want to be
there with you,
but I’m afraid you’ll leave someday.
War inside
a broken heart,
a battered beaten soul.
I’d give a fight
to live again,
but the world has swallowed me whole.

12-11-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

1991, The Year to Have and Learn

1991 was a good year for me,
even though there was just as much bad.
It brought to me the many friends,
as well as taking the ones I had.
It took so many lives of those
who were so loved by us all.
And even though their voices are gone,
I can still hear them call.
It was a year of helping others
and having loads of fun,
a time of many hard working days,
yet a time of lazy ones.

So many times I ran in fear
to someone in distress,
then turned around a little later
and gave my friends the best.
So many lights of friendship gone,
so many new and bright.
Once again, it was a year
to love and hate the light.
It was a year of touch and see,
a year of holding back.
For as many tears that built inside,
the concern was much to lack.

It was a year of seeing rock
come to awe my eyes.
For what the human eyes never saw,
it was more than a surprise.
Ninety-one was certainly long
and a whole new thing to learn.
For as many things that taught us to laugh,
many taught us to burn.
It was a year of meeting people
and accepting them for who they are.
Having a blast over anything,
and loving someone from afar.

It was a time to miss a lot,
as lives and events escaped.
They can never be replaced again,
but the future must be laid.
So all in all, as I can see for now
the year was a great success.
For as much as we wanted to live and learn,
we certainly don’t have any less.

12-31-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

10 Things That I’m Thankful For

  1. That God does exists.
  2. That Jesus died for all.
  3. That Jesus is alive.
  4. That we can be forgiven.
  5. That God gave us love.
  6. That God gave us family & friends.
  7. That God gave us life.
  8. That God gave us Thanksgiving.
  9. That God brought the soldiers home.
  10. That we will all go to heaven soon.

11-28-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Thanksgiving Day of Nov.28, 1991
PS. T.W. challenged me to write this.

Your Virtue

As pure as the snow,
your virtue is a way to survive.
With all the complications,
how do you stay alive?
You’ve got the special things
everyone should long for,
but that brings you above all
and special all the more.
Keep your smile for pleasantries
and fight this world for peace.
Your virtue is something special,
but to others just a piece.
If you ever need to talk,
call me for the time,
and when you need more than that
put God within your mind.

7-10-89 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
PS. For Homey