What Was Only Ours

Samson, you disappoint me.
You let me down.
After so many years of nurturing,
Of personally preparing you,
And giving you strength like no other.
After everything you have meant to me,
I have meant so little to you
That you would kiss away that strength
With the breath from your lips.
Words that betray.
Words that reveal.
Words that invite the enemy
To take you away from me.
You have given yourself over to them.
And when you have awakened
From your lullaby of love,
You will find yourself abandoned…
Chained… imprisoned… and alone.
And the strength you’ve come to rely on
Will be gone.
How you grieve me.
How you break my heart.
You have allowed evil to separate us
When I long to hold you so close
And wish you had trusted me,
That you had protected what was only ours.

12-9-2016 Friday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: Samson’s Secret Strength

The Harvest Has Yet to Be Sorted

Many accounted pains have placed our hearts in the hand of a God who is believed to be squeezing the life out of us with His mighty grip,
Yet they are the very things that God Himself has tried to warn us of doing or has so lovingly been patient with us as long as He could in our disobedience.
Choices are a gift of love… God seems to understand that,
But we seem to think that the gift to choose our lives means until we damage what we can no longer control, then God will restore for us what we only continue to destroy again.
A sacrifice of love is no longer even an issue for so many.
They actually feel they live on a cross every day, taking on the world’s sin and ugliness, only to be sent to their graves at an early age.
They have no idea the misconception so unfortunately built on a theory that “everything is God’s fault.”
They have no consideration that the very suffering laid upon each generation is a direct result of the sinful choices chosen is generations past.
There is no thought of a man who allowed His Son to experience violence, murder, abuse, mockery, and unspeakable sufferings that we have yet to thank God for what we can not even imagine.
This man in heaven “chose” to allow His Son to make that “choice” for Himself.
And His Son displayed His Father’s wisdom, love, grace, and mercifulness.
Many would turn and reject Him and His Father, as they do now, and yet still the crucifixion took place.
Despite the act of love, we still blame God for what we are too selfish to do ourselves in helping, loving one another, and saving the world in what opportunities given… “entrusted” to us.
We think we have seen it all when tragedy strikes us, yet we forget… we don’t even give thought to the God who has seen suffering and tragedy from the moment Eve grieved herself into temptation to the future violence in our streets this world has yet to really endure.
So many people who claim to know this loving God and His Son spend hours and quality moments of God-given time arguing of the proper way, the only way, and the denominational way of sharing a message that they are “too righteous” to understand.
In determination that this urgent message of love be given in the “only way they believe in” they waste and destroy so many lost lives standing right in front of them with a broken and open heart longing to know of such a love as this God.
The role of women is tossed back and forth and so debated upon that children don’t even hear the point of why men or women are here upon this earth.
How “on earth” can they find their own place in life?
Knees… our open altars to a Holy Spirit who waits for even one soul to adhere to the “comforter” that Jesus Christ left behind for peace and direction,
And yet they greatest cry is still, “who will comfort us, who will guide us, who will be our God?”
From the beginning to the end, we will continue to roam the wilderness in search of our manna.
But the soul will never be fully fed, until the Great Harvest, when the Planter shall gather what He has grown.
Will you be ready for the season, or will your roots have been too damaged by your environment?

8-16-1999 Monday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Darkness Is God Too

We praise so much of God being the light, of Jesus lighting the way,
And being the light of the earth
That we make people forget God is in the darkness.
“He made darkness his secret hiding place;
His pavilion round about HIm were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies.”
 – Psalms 18:11 KJV
So many people are convinced that God is gone when all is so dark.
We teach so often that evil is black, dark, and unknown,
But that is not true.
God loves the darkness,
And as much as He allows us to know,
Everything about Him is unknown to us.
People wouldn’t be so afraid of the dark.
If we didn’t convince them God will only be in the light.

8-1999
Written by Gail Brookshire

You Are a Love That Never Fails

God, You are a love that never fails…
A love that never expects more than I can give…
That doesn’t even love me for the things that You can expect of me…
But instead loves me for everything I can and cannot do…
Because it is me You love… my soul… not my abilities to do what I can do…
Your Son living inside my heart makes all the difference in the world
To place that kind of love in me for others.

No matter what I do or do not do in my life…
Whether I succeed or fail…
Whether I earn a college degree or a classic lesson of life…
You will love me for whatever I am… and whoever I am…
Because You will be who I am… by living in my soul.

I never have to worry about Your love disappearing…
Abandonment is not a fear with you… it is not even a reality…
Because You are all my dreams come true…
In every moment that I share with You.
I know that Your love does not change…
And does not want to hurt me in any way.
I know that Your love looks after me and protects me.

You do not like people to hurt me…
And will protect me against all that can hurt me…
Including people who love You… or that You love.
You want us all to share love with one another.
Sharing Your love with the world does not mean losing Your love for me.

Thank You for being the kind of love who looks after all my family and friends…
That shelters the world and cares for the suffering.
It’s not a love that “talks” about the world suffering…
Your love acts upon the world suffering…
You care if any of Your children hurt…
Your love is not a love of negligence or vengeance…
Your love is not of this world.
Your love is a love of its own kind.
Thank You for sharing it with me.
I have been so blessed.
I love You.

7-25-1999 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Intimacy… It’s a Godly Thing

Finally… I have learned why God has placed such value on purity,
And such strong warning on fornication…
At least that’s what I always say right after I have allowed myself to be hurt again.
God shows me again and again how a person cannot possibly love me
Unless they make me a part of their life forever,
Vow to all their loved ones and mine… dedication,
And give to me (not just promise) a lifetime commitment
Before they even lay a hand on me.
That is the only way to awaken the next morning with no guilt,
No shame, and no fear of my love leaving the next day.

It does not mean there will be no fighting, no arguing,
No totally frustrating and “I hate you and never want to see you again” moments.
It just means that if you have these moments,
You have a true commitment to try as hard as you can
To make it last, work it out, and support one another.
You don’t talk about who has hurt who,
Try to figure a way out,
Or feel cheap for giving yourself so intimately.
You know the person beside you will still be home tonight to lay down beside you,
And hopefully make amends of whatever trouble there may be,
And if not, you know they will still be there.

Intimacy is a treasure between two people who know
Their lovemaking has nothing to do with why they are together,
Why they stick together,
And pledge their friendship and marriage.
It is something they know they honor their God with,
And create life in their children.
It is something that could never be used as a weapon,
And never cheapened to a short event of life,
To only be associated with pain and heartache.
It is not something to compare from one lover to another,
And is not something to steal from people you love.
I am not innocent in my pledge to love being only for the married.
I am not innocent of honoring others in their right to be loved forever,
But I can say that I have never found pleasure in exchanging pleasure for pain.

The more I hurt myself, the more God shows me truth.
Patience is more of a virtue than even I can understand.
And even if I never find a man who will follow through
With his word of love…
His pledge of marital wishes…
And be the first man in my life to give God His just deserves
In marrying a woman God honored them with…
Before defiling her, and make leaving such a justifiable excuse.
I will always have the amazement of God’s love…
The love of a man who has never touched me anywhere but my heart…
Who has asked nothing of me, except to love Him, myself, and people,
And has taken nothing from me, but all the pain and hurt that has been given me,
As well as my place in hell, by the grace of His merciful and forgiving heart.

Intimacy… it’s a love of purity and commitment…
A pledge to stick together forever…no matter what…
Even if it means from time to time
You have to endure the unpleasant…
And be a little forgiving…
Maybe even continuously forgiving.
Intimacy… it’s a Godly thing.

5-27-1999 Thursday
Written by Gail Brookshire

My Favorite Cliche

“Jesus Christ died for you! What more do you want Him to do? – Die Again?
Love is sacrifice. What are you going to do for Him?”

This is a cliche that I must be selfish with because I love the meaning behind it.
I love the fact it asks so bluntly, “What are you going to do for Him?”
and “What more do you want Him to do – Die again?”
It is so sad to hear the question of dying again.
It makes you feel a closer connection of what it meant that He “DIED!”
This is also a very sympathetic emotional plea and sentiment.
It makes me feel like I need to think every time I hear it.
I love You, God. Bless You and praise You, Father.
I love You forever! In sweet Jesus name I pray… AMEN!
Forever Loving You, Your daughter.

3-17-1994 Thursday
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. Most times, I just say the first part:
“Jesus Christ died for you! What more do you want Him to do? – Die Again?”

Honesty Is The Best Policy

Honesty is the best policy.
It makes people accept you for who you are.
They may not like what you say,
What you do, or who you are,
But at least it is the truth.
Also, if in the future people change their minds;
Then they have learned to accept you for what is real.
When people know you and accept you for who you are;
Then there is trust.
People prefer the truth
Because it keeps the possibility
For trouble and bad tension out of sight.
If one person could learn to be honest,
No matter what the topic, situation, or place,
Then a lot of people will benefit from it.

11-3-1992
written by Gail Brookshire