Afraid, Yet I Do

Afraid to believe and yet I do.
I am so scared to believe in love, life, and people.
Yet I believe in the very God who made all three.
Afraid to trust and yet I do.
I am afraid to trust in anyone or anything,
Yet I trust in this God I cannot see.
I trust and love and believe
In someone I’ve never met.
Someone I’ve never held.
And yet I have give Him my life.
I make decisions according to His pleasure.
I strive to obey Him.
And when I wrong Him,
I am heartbroken and regret
Because I am saddened to know I grieve Him.
Trust, love, believe.
I am afraid of them all,
And yet I believe, love, and trust the very meaning of them all…
God!

1-14-2004 Wednesday
Written by Gail Brookshire

For You, My Best Friend

Just for You, I will try to trust.
Though it’s scary, I see I must.
I cannot reach those I avoid.
I must not remain so paranoid.
Your people are made in Your image.
And I must make sure I remember it.
Many of Your children are lost and unsaved.
Their paths are so dark and unpaved.
I cannot promise anything to You.
But you know my intentions are true.
I lay my soul to rest in sleep,
And know that my future You keep.
No matter who I trust or believe in,
I know that You are my Best Friend.

10-30-2000 Monday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: My Best Friend Jesus Christ!

Faith in Me

Faith in Me… that’s not such a stable thing.
How can You believe in me after all my faults?
My shortcomings really add up.
Trusting me means You believe in me.
Why? Why do You believe in me?
I don’t believe in myself anymore.
I have no reason to.
Why do You care so much for me to believe?
There’s nothing You can gain from my broken promises.
Even my friends have given up on me.
My family is so disappointed.
Why would You stand by me still?
Do You not see my worthlessness?
No, You don’t.
You only see good in me.
Why? Because You know You are in me.
But You also know I am only human.
You know I make mistakes like everyone else,
Even big ones.
I am so glad that is what You see.
It’s when I look at myself through Your eyes
That I gain hope to believe in me.
If it weren’t for You believing in me when I don’t,
And when there’s every reason not to,
I would just give up on myself.
Thank You for having faith in me.
It helps me to have faith in myself…
And in You.

4-29-2000 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: My Lord and Savior, my Friend and Support, Jesus Christ

I’ve Got Your Number

Tired and exhausted,
I attempt to rest in Your hands.
My body so weak and tired
That only Your healing touch understands.
Nightfall, thunderstorms, pouring rain…
They fall together.
Yet I will take shelter with You
In all forms of weather.
Life speaks to even my dream
And I vision Your sight.
Trust in You and Your Son to come,
And He’ll be my Guiding Light.
Underneath the sky and moon,
I rest my soul to slumber.
If there is a need that arises,
I know I’ve got Your number.

3-20-2000 Monday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Following Your Light

Following Your light, darkness tries to distort You.
In a moment of confusion I pause to play it safe.
I wait for You to lead me with Your voice,
Or to take me by the hand in the right direction.
I feel Your concern.
I know Your sincerity.
Trust is what You are all about.
Yes this fear of getting hurt with what I cannot see
Is keeping me from moving.
I’m afraid something might strike me,
Something may be unreliable, dangerous.
You urge me to trust You and I explain…
“It’s not You I am afraid to trust.
It’s the pain I might come across.”
Slowly, a mist of light shines in Your eyes.
They are all I can see.
I look into them and they say,
“I love you. I never want anything to hurt you.
But for Me to bring you to a safe place,
You have to be willing to trust Me enough
To leave this uncertain place you are in.
I can’t promise there won’t be anything
Upon the path that won’t hurt you.
But I can promise you that I will be with you,
And will never leave you.
Your pain will be My pain,
And I will make My peace your peace.
Will you believe Me and trust Me?”
With my heart filled with overwhelming comfort,
I reply, “I will and I do.”
I take Your hand and step forward in faith.

2-24-1999 Wednesday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Honesty Is The Best Policy

Honesty is the best policy.
It makes people accept you for who you are.
They may not like what you say,
What you do, or who you are,
But at least it is the truth.
Also, if in the future people change their minds;
Then they have learned to accept you for what is real.
When people know you and accept you for who you are;
Then there is trust.
People prefer the truth
Because it keeps the possibility
For trouble and bad tension out of sight.
If one person could learn to be honest,
No matter what the topic, situation, or place,
Then a lot of people will benefit from it.

11-3-1992
written by Gail Brookshire

How Do I Know You Care

Simply holding me for one.
Sticking around would be another.
To talk with me as a friend,
Instead of using me as your lover.
To be interested in what I have to say.
For it to be your choice to want to stay.
To know when I’m lying about my mental health,
When what I’m doing is protecting myself.
To make me cry when I continue to laugh.
To give me your all and never half.
To say you care about my distrust.
And to let me have you to trust.

10-30-1989
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: TW challenging me to write about how I know someone cares. It’s interesting to look back at what I thought over almost 30 years ago. God does amazing things to heal our way of thinking! God is my hero! ❤