More Faith or Heart?

What are we supposed to do
When live in a world where no one is allowed to love?
What are we supposed to believe
When we hold our faith in the great God above?
Are we supposed to believe that we are exempt from passion…
Even if it’s in love and marriage?
Why are some of us destined to be alone…
Or rather unmarried?
I know we’re never alone,
But why are we sometimes so isolated that we feel deserted?
We should be able to focus our love and companionship on Jesus.
He was alone in companionship too/
And He was never married.
Yes He traveled and lodged with the disciples,
But that wasn’t 24 hours a day,
And it wasn’t every day of His life.
He even spent time alone with God in the wilderness.
Tempted by Satan in every way.
Yet He gloriously triumphed
And resisted the worldly treasures.
So why do we feel alone when Jesus is so with us
And knows exactly how we feel?
Could it be we need more faith?
Or more heart?

6-29-1996 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire

God, I’ve Done It Again

God,
Well, I’ve done it again.
I’ve fallen for another temptation.
And all I can think about
Is how much I actually think I’ll miss it when it destroys me.
Why must I imagine such evil and wicked thoughts?
I am not evil,
And I will not give my soul away to anyone but You,
My Sweet Jesus Christ, My Savior.
I love You with my heart and soul,
Yet walk away.
Why am I so resistant of Your love?
Why does it scare me to know You care?
Why does it feel scary to be obligated and mean it?
Isn’t it OK to love someone?
Especially someone who loves You?
What’s so wrong with wanting to love,
And why is it so hard to do when You are so close?

9-6-1990
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. I am so glad You got through to me, Jesus. It took such a long hard road to fall so in love with You, but I am so glad You never gave up! Thank You, for teaching me about true love… in You! ❤ I fall more and more each day! Gladly so!

ADDICTION

Forgiving is a task.
Yet, I must ask.
My sins of confession
Are of my obsession.
Could I come to resist
The temptation that persists?
Help me to endure the wait,
Of the things in my life so great.
I am within the addiction.
It is a lifelong conviction.
Yet if I want to keep living,
I must ask for Your help and forgiving.

10-28-1989 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire

On Sacred Grounds

In his room, a place he calls his own.
This is his space and not for others to know.
For to even enter is to come upon Sacred Grounds..
Sacred Grounds… let’s think about that.
Here is a room where one can enter with purity
And depart with stolen innocence.

As the Christian girl approaches the open door,
It symbolizes the the open invitation to temptation.
Temptation is what consumes this room.
He holds out his hand to the young woman.
She looks into his eyes and comes forward.
His persuasion convinces her entrance.
Yes, she chooses to accept the offer,
And as her heart weakens, seduction is his strength.

Lights are low, music so soft.
They’re alone with how they feel.
Too close to a welcoming bed they dance.
While she struggles to resist the moment,
The moment struggles to insist surrender.
Kisses… so warm upon her neck.
He whispers the soft masculine words.
Her yearnings are put to the ultimate test.
And as she fails to stand her ground,
She lays down with him on his.
Though she has been promised it will feel like heaven,
And the two hearts may feel like it is…
All hell is breaking loose.

The angels have deserted the child of purity.
Purity has deserted the angel.
A Heavenly Father releases the hands of His children,
As His heirs have been erased from HIS WILL!
For while the young man is guilty of stealing her innocence,
She is guilty of treason by sleeping with the enemy.
She has lost her shield in the heat of the battle.
Within the Sacred Grounds, she has been stripped of her armor.
The warrior has been tamed and prepared for conversion.
Her combat instructions were to pray for her enemies,
And to set the example for the prisoners of war,
Just in case the Master of Reason captured a soldier who would
Discover the desire to march as a knight for the King.
Her disobedience has injured the strategic healing
Of a dying cadet by the Captain of Miracles.
General Physician had worked long and hard to salvage the private
From a world of uncertainty
Because the Peacemaker had longed to reassure this skilled man
Of an unfailing love and a heavenly place made just for him
Upon HOLY and Sacred Grounds.

As the trial begins, the judge opens His book.
The transcripts convict the violators of sin and shame.
They are found unworthy to walk upon the Sacred Grounds.
Cast into the fire ignited by the very passion that led to their destruction,
Guilt is all they share.

5-12-1998 Wednesday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: The Lord was working on me around this time of the possible consequences of seeking or giving into comfort and pleasure. It’s not just me in that moment. Temptation is a struggle for both sexes… and for Christians and non-Christians alike. We are to pray and be support for one another. The enemy is looking for every foothold he can get.

Poisoned For Life

Temptation… I am poisoned with lustful thoughts.
No matter how hard I try (and succeed) resisting,
I am still consumed with the thoughts
and know the struggle will continue tomorrow.
Between my own sinful experiences,
the knowledge of other’s rendezvous,
and the images viewed from media,
I am overwhelmed with visions of desires.
Satan has known mine weaknesses.
He continues to entice me.
How I resist only God knows,
for it is only in God’s strength that I can.
Spiritual warfare is a battle only God can win.
Thank you, Lord, for being so faithful.
This flesh is poisoned for life from its memories.
You warn us the taste itself feeds the soul
with wickedness and shame.
Be my guard, my strength, and my desire.

3-31-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
God answered these prayers years ago and still does. If you struggle with these things, especially in a world where media, peers, authority figures, even our own experiences choke you day and night…. DON’T GIVE UP! GOD CAN! AND GOD WILL!
GOD LOVES YOU! ❤

Besetting Foe (My Ugly Enemy)

You disgust me. I detest you.
The way you come at me
as if I want you.
The way you pursue me
as if I desire you.
The way you persist
as if I cannot resist.
You charge at me
from every possible source.
You think you will conquer me
with force.
But you are my enemy,
my foe I abhor.
I cannot tolerate you.
You are a foul odor!
You think I lust for you.
You think you tempt me.
But my God has empowered me
to rebuke you.
He has aligned Himself with me
and fights for me.
Your tactics to invade my dreams
only inflame my rage.
You have no attraction over me.
You are ugly and contempt.
Throw all of the junk of the world at me
as much as you want.
God is the only one I care to think on.
Trash my environment.
Trash my view.
But my soul is His
and always will be.
Temptation….
that’s what they call you.
But you are not tempting to me.
Just as you tempted my Savior,
you vie for me.
But with His strength,
I too will cling to God’s word.
Get thee behind me!
The cross is before me
every step of the way!

8-3-15 written by Gail Brookshire

Lost Testimony

Years of ministry, marriage, and testimony
gone in a heated moment.
Years of discipline and faithfulness
completely stolen.
Stolen from a loving Savior
who will forgive even this transgressor,
yet it will be thrown in His face
by the aggressor.
Oh moments of guilt and shame
do occasion,
but they are always trumped
by persistent temptation.
How hard for those
who drew from their strength
to witness the weakness,
near or at length.
Yet how devastating
for a Savior who died
to now live and wait
for those who have defied.

7-16-15 written by Gail Brookshire