Dreaming My Life Awake

Dreams… oh someone please talk to me about dreams.
I am so scared of mine!
I have so many.
Many do not make sense.
Many do not come twice.
And many won’t go away.
Why won’t they go away,
Or at least explain explain themselves.
I don’t want to stop dreaming
Because some dreams comfort me.
To have the good.
I must see the bad.
At least I forget some…
So easily.
I am so sad
When I can’t escape others.
Please help me.
I know that God talks to us in dreams.
My head is so filled with evil
That I am uncertain when
It is him or my subconscious.
I want to erase the nightmares,
But not if it means giving up
His sacred message.
I love Him too much to miss Him.
Time to go.
I have to wake up.

8-21-2005 Sunday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Read On and Move On

Writer’s don’t write, we feel.
And we put it on paper.
Yeah, we imagine things, but it comes
From the hurt and heart we’ve had.
We cannot possibly write something
So fake that it had nothing to do with
Anything we had to feel.
Even in our imaginations,
We see the dreams we perceive,
The nightmares we escape,
The continuing heartache
That keeps dragging us down,
And the many things keeping us going.
We are not to be blamed for what we feel.
We are what others have made us to be
By hurting us, loving us, or deceiving us.
Whichever you choose to see
Or discover in our expressions.
It’s just another way of getting hurt again,
So read on and move on. I’m sure it’s nothing new,

10-25-1992 Sunday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Fictional Visions

God, death is so cruel.
I know it’s reassuring and comforting too,
but why is it allowed to scare us,
to trick us,
to bring such horrible nightmares and terrifying fears?
Why are we allowed to be tormented
when we’re ready to accept the facts and face it as it was?
Couldn’t You please explain why in order to find love
we must first learn to deal with pain?
I know we must learn to appreciate and be thankful,
but why must we be terrified by visions of fictional scenes?
It’s just so hard to go through these changes of life and death.
Just please be with us and help us to grow and learn in faith.
Bless You and praise You,
our Sweet Jesus Christ our Lord, our Rock, and Salvation.
Thank You for love, life, and eternity.
Forever Loving You.

6-8-91 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)