Poisoned For Life

Temptation… I am poisoned with lustful thoughts.
No matter how hard I try (and succeed) resisting,
I am still consumed with the thoughts
and know the struggle will continue tomorrow.
Between my own sinful experiences,
the knowledge of other’s rendezvous,
and the images viewed from media,
I am overwhelmed with visions of desires.
Satan has known mine weaknesses.
He continues to entice me.
How I resist only God knows,
for it is only in God’s strength that I can.
Spiritual warfare is a battle only God can win.
Thank you, Lord, for being so faithful.
This flesh is poisoned for life from its memories.
You warn us the taste itself feeds the soul
with wickedness and shame.
Be my guard, my strength, and my desire.

3-31-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
God answered these prayers years ago and still does. If you struggle with these things, especially in a world where media, peers, authority figures, even our own experiences choke you day and night…. DON’T GIVE UP! GOD CAN! AND GOD WILL!
GOD LOVES YOU! ❤

Evil Appetite

Let me clarify before you read this poem below that I am no longer like this. I really struggled to still save and post this poem as I am trusting God in leading me in which poems to save and delete. I just don’t like it any more. But for that one who may be struggling in the same way, I testify to you that God does answer prayer, the Holy Spirit is more powerful than our deepest lusts, and far more comforting than any physical feeling there ever has been, is now, or ever will be… without having to defile yourself, give yourself away, or to think so low of yourself. I post this for you because God wants you to know that He hasn’t given up on you. He knows the struggle we have in this flesh. Even if this is the millionth time you have failed, or still fight so hard to stay pure (or to even understand the importance of purity), God knows you love Him. Keep praying! Keep trying! Trust Him to know where you are and what you’ve done (even if it was an hour ago), and trust Him to still want you! He will save! He can! The Holy Spirit will give you the best relationship you have ever had in Christ. And that does not necessarily mean that you will not be married to the right one some day! But Christ is always the right one… NO MATTER WHAT!
❤ ❤ Thank You, God for answered prayer ❤ ❤
❤ ❤ Thank you, Holy Spirit, for consuming me! ❤ ❤
❤ ❤ Keep consuming! ❤ ❤
❤ ❤ Thank you, Jesus, for loving me… ❤ ❤
❤ ❤ like no one ever has or ever could! ❤ ❤
❤ ❤ Thank you for 15 years of purity. ❤ ❤
❤ ❤ I use to pray for even one! ❤ ❤

Appetite… now that’s the word I’ve been looking for
to describe the desires that are so inviting.
It’s not sin, lust, but an appetite
that I have been resisting and fighting.
There are so many things that remind me
of pleasures that have left a luxurious flavor.
It begins with a small craving just to taste
then consumes me with an appetite to savor.
I drink in all that I can
of whatever morsel I am lucky to receive.
The things I am willing to indulge in,
you just would not believe.
Help me, Lord, as these things are evil
and their demons can so easily possess.
Help me to steer clear and be strong,
as I find no one to whom I can confess.
You know my every thought
and are the strength I rely on.
Replace in me the Holy Spirit
and make this evil appetite be gone.

6-16-01 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)