Tag: confession

The Power of Lustful Temptation

On By gaillovesgodIn 2000Leave a comment

Dear Lord, how powerful this lustful temptation.
How on earth do we humans who are so weak stand strong?
It is so incredible what we will do to fulfill a desire.
It doesn’t matter in the least if we know it to be right or wrong.
How was this evil thing ever created to begin with?
Why is it so hard to fight it even when it is undesirable to us?
It is a mystery of the many unknowns I still do not comprehend.
I only know it is defined by all as a simple four letter word… lust.

Tonight I have been so filled with overwhelming emotion.
I have thought the evilest of thoughts just to gain pleasure.
I have even embarked up on grounds so Holy and sacred.
I have mentally broken the vows that You treasure.
I cannot believe the depths I eventually sunk to in my mind
Just to have one long moment of sexual satisfaction.
At one point I don’t even think I worried about discretion.
I could have cared less if caught or of anyone’s reaction.

As frustrated as I became over interruptions to my thoughts,
I do not honestly know how I refrained from following through.
I am in a never ending awe and an eternal thankfulness to You,
Oh, Lord, heal me from this ugliness that is clearly sin,
Please take from me this vile vision to hurt others.
My soul does not desire this destruction of my temple.
I do not want to sell my soul, or endanger any lovers.

I kneel upon my knees with a confession upon my lips.
I ask for Your mercy and forgiveness of this sin.
I give to You this battle of fighting this spiritual warfare.
You are the only way anyone could ever win.
I hate this ugliness, the evil that seeks to hurt souls.
I defy that which hurts my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
I rebuke Satan and his attempt to take me from You.
I will have no doubt in my faith who will win the fight.

Lust has had his hold on me and I have given aide at times.
And thought I am still only human, weak, and will sometimes fall,
Still I know that I can do all things possible through Jesus Christ Our Lord.
And that someday I will no longer be tempted with lust at all.

6-25-2000 Sunday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: I think it’s obvious.
PS. I am so glad God removed these temptations, renewed my mind,
and taught me to see things in His eyes! I pray that sharing this as
A part of my testimony of God’s work in my life will encourage those of you
Who maybe thinking you are too far gone, too vile, and because you
Are so disgusted with yourself that God has to be beyond tolerating you anymore.
God loves you and wants to renew your mind! He is faithful to His word!

The Reason

On By gaillovesgodIn 1990Leave a comment

Sometimes it feels like the secrets I hide
Are the only things I have left to share,
And that when I confess them,
No one will have a reason to care.
It seems as though everyone is
Out to discover your memories,
Trying to understand your pain,
Believing they’ll fulfill your needs,
But every time you trust in one,
You’re soon betrayed.
And then they open the door
From which you friendship was made,
Soon again you’re left alone
With no one there to care.
And all your secrets are stolen,
Gaining more heartache to bear.
So when you ask me why it’s hard,
To open up to you,
It’s because i’m afraid to release
The memories I hold onto.

10-10-1990 Wednesday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: written for Carolyn’s book.
God is my hero.

 

ADDICTION

On By gaillovesgodIn 19892 Comments

Forgiving is a task.
Yet, I must ask.
My sins of confession
Are of my obsession.
Could I come to resist
The temptation that persists?
Help me to endure the wait,
Of the things in my life so great.
I am within the addiction.
It is a lifelong conviction.
Yet if I want to keep living,
I must ask for Your help and forgiving.

10-28-1989 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire

What Will She Think?

On By gaillovesgodIn 2003Leave a comment

She’s been told something so horrible to hear.
She’s been informed of needless information.
Will it be too much to remain friends?
Will it damage our good and godly relation?
I hated having to tell her what I did.
I was trying to obey you with open confession.
Will she think less of me and avoid me?
Can she bear the news of my transgression?
I pray that she doesn’t hold it against me, Lord.
I think so dearly of her.
If I could take away my ugly past, I would.
You of all people know it’s not what I would prefer.
Please help her to forgive me, Lord.
Don’t let her judge me by this deed.
I want to show her and you I’m sorry.
For mercy, I plead.
I pray for her, Lord.
As she has a way of thinking that I do not know.
Help us to grow in sisterhood.
Help us both to let go.

5-18-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Inspiration: a dear friend

Praying For Godly Communication

On By gaillovesgodIn 2003Leave a comment

God, this man you ordained has heard my sin.
He knows exactly how I gave in.
He knows I let Satan have a moment of victory.
That there is a deeply ugly part of me.
Please help him not to be afraid of my presence,
Nor judge me with his absence.
Allow him and his wife to know for sure
I would never hurt them. Please reassure!
What I have confessed was sin against you!
I can’t erase that the events were true.
But I can bring them to you and confess.
I have done that openly and choose not to transgress.
Give this man guidance, Lord, that he might guide me.
And give us all peace that I have been set free.
I am no longer in bondage, headed for my grave.
I am your servant. I am your slave.
Praise you, Lord, for this pastor’s dedication.
Help us to continue in godly communication.

5-18-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

God, Protect My Sister In Christ!

On By gaillovesgodIn 2003Leave a comment

Lord, I’m afraid I’m going to lose my sister in Christ.
If I do, it will be all my fault.
I trusted her enough to share my confession.
I wanted her there.
I felt you wanted her there.
You know how I have had a hard time
communicating with truly godly women.
I don’t know how to be honest
without being too much for them.
I am what I am.
I am trying to become more of what you want.
Please, help us, Lord, not to let this
difference between us
make us grow apart.
I want to be a friend and a support to her too.
Thank you for dying for her.
Thank you for loving her
and for protecting her from people like me.
Praise you.

5-18-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Inspiration: A Christian sister who asked to be a part of counseling me as a Christian single was very wise to pick up on things that I “thought” I was discreet and private about. As she asked me to be honest with her in private, she would be so heartbroken about things that it scared me that I was “too inappropriate” to be a Christian. I thought I would surely lose her friendship. She let me know she was broken “for” me, not “because of” me. She was a very dear sister in Christ. The Lord used her greatly in my life.

Burdened by Flesh

On By gaillovesgodIn 2015, Uncategorized1 Comment

A head hung in shame,
A heart broken just to know
That she has pained her Savior
Or caused any woe.
So much He has done for her,
This she realizes.
She makes no pretense.
She has caused her crisis.
Weighing heavily on her soul
Is the disappointment of her Lord.
She was genuine in confessing her sins,
And intended to do no more.
Yet here is the truth,
that she cannot escape the flesh.
She, like everyone else,
Will sin until her death.
Only His word and His blood
Can forgive and restore.
He walks through life with her
Till she reaches His shore.

7-22-15 written by Gail Brookshire