Trapped inside a heart with memories and regrets.
Forever I will carry the result of my sins.
Yes I have God to remind me I am forgiven,
That as far as He’s concerned my sins are forgotten.
But while I am stuck in this ever struggling human body,
I am also stricken with this ever condemning human mind.
If only I had obeyed my God and avoided the temptation altogether,
Maybe I would have escaped their hauntings.
If only I had kept God first in everything,
Those memories wouldn’t be able to last.
But as it is… I am what I am, and I have done what I have done.
There is no erasing and escaping my consequences,
At least not from my abilities.
I take my lickings and face my accusers.
For as I am contained within a human body,
My soul contains the Spirit of God.
He stands by me even in the midst of my self destruction
Because He will not lose what is His.
Because of His faithfulness and mercy,
I am able to accept that I have made a mistake but am not defeated.
He is understanding to know I am sincere.
He is understanding to know I have been deceived.
And while He does not excuse me from my responsibility,
He does not excuse those involved in my fall of theirs either.
A loving and authoritative Father does not take kindly to the hurt placed on His child.
He will not allow the guilty to go unaccountable.
They will answer to their God.
As for my memories and haunting regrets,
He will replace each one with a new song of joy.
He will give laughter to replace the tears.
And just when Satan thinks he can drown me
With guilt and sorrow from irresponsible choices,
My God will lay my human body to rest and relieve me of its chains.
No more will the filth and pain walk with me.
My spirit filled soul will arise by God’s powerful hand and ascend to His Holy Land.
Purity of Holiness of a Holy God will free me of the past
And cleanse me for a Godly paradise.
The blood of my Savior Jesus Christ will break all that Satan has tried to hold on me.
The forgiveness within my Redeemer’s grace will give me a new dwelling place of peace.
God is so good. Christ is so generous. I am so blessed to be loved by both.
Written by Gail Brookshire