Present In The Pit

Bound by a chain of darkness,
I was a prisoner to my sin.
I had the best intentions
In the eyes of men.
Right in mine own eyes,
I could not see Your truth.
I was the queen of innocence
In my wayward youth.
Yet down from heaven You came
To reach me in my pit.
You took the veil from my eyes,
And helped me to actually see it.
Washed, cleansed, renewed by You.
You left the ninety nine.
Because You came for me,
I am Yours, and You are mine.
No longer bound by chains of pain,
I’m free to receive Your love.
No need for false security.
Your presence is enough.

6.12.2020 Friday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: That You would come down into my pit of darkness and fight for me, even if it was me You had to fight. Tough love is a soul saver! ❤

Peace Is Only a Lifetime Away

Trapped inside a heart with memories and regrets.
Forever I will carry the result of my sins.
Yes I have God to remind me I am forgiven,
That as far as He’s concerned my sins are forgotten.
But while I am stuck in this ever struggling human body,
I am also stricken with this ever condemning human mind.
If only I had obeyed my God and avoided the temptation altogether,
Maybe I would have escaped their hauntings.
If only I had kept God first in everything,
Those memories wouldn’t be able to last.
But as it is… I am what I am, and I have done what I have done.
There is no erasing and escaping my consequences,
At least not from my abilities.
I take my lickings and face my accusers.
For as I am contained within a human body,
My soul contains the Spirit of God.
He stands by me even in the midst of my self destruction
Because He will not lose what is His.
Because of His faithfulness and mercy,
I am able to accept that I have made a mistake but am not defeated.
He is understanding to know I am sincere.
He is understanding to know I have been deceived.
And while He does not excuse me from my responsibility,
He does not excuse those involved in my fall of theirs either.
A loving and authoritative Father does not take kindly to the hurt placed on His child.
He will not allow the guilty to go unaccountable.
They will answer to their God.
As for my memories and haunting regrets,
He will replace each one with a new song of joy.
He will give laughter to replace the tears.
And just when Satan thinks he can drown me
With guilt and sorrow  from irresponsible choices,
My God will lay my human body to rest and relieve me of its chains.
No more will the filth and pain walk with me.
My spirit filled soul will arise by God’s powerful hand and ascend to His Holy Land.
Purity of Holiness of a Holy God will free me of the past
And cleanse me for a Godly paradise.
The blood of my Savior Jesus Christ will break all that Satan has tried to hold on me.
The forgiveness within my Redeemer’s grace will give me a new dwelling place of peace.
God is so good. Christ is so generous. I am so blessed to be loved by both.

11-27-18 Friday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Lord of My Heart

Jesus is Lord of my heart.
I welcome Him in to stay.
He doesn’t have to wonder.
I wouldn’t have it any other way.
He’s got the keys to every door.
He broke the locks and chains.
He cleaned out all the cobwebs.
Now only His love remains.
No clutter or junk.
Nor any untended scars.
He heals with His caring touch
And softens what was hard.
He’s no longer a visitor.
His home is where my heart is.
Every day He draws me nearer
To come and live in His.

9-21-11 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

NO SALE!

If I have to write all night, I will!
I refuse to give into these thoughts!
I don’t know why I ever entertained them before.
It’s obvious how I was always bought.
When Satan sold me those lies,
I believed every one.
“You won’t be hurting anyone.
You’re just having fun.”
But those were such lies.
I was hurting me and my lover.
Sex cannot keep you from hell.
God will serve no other!
Exodus tells us how abominable we are
to commit such sin.
There is no getting away with it
when God brings our end!
Protect me, Lord, and know my thoughts.
I will not be sold again.
For by Christ’s blood I have been bought.

5-15-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Unfortunately this was a part of my testimony, and for the ones who read it and tell me it helps them to know they are not alone, and not give up, I post this… even though it is extremely hard to share. I have bought into the lie that my testimony is “inappropriate” for too long. My testimony is what God allowed. This poem is me fighting during very difficult times that I now have such shame for because the love of God saved me. The Holy Spirit changed my way of thinking. Even if His encouraging me to testify helps just one… praise His Holy and Cleansing name! I was blessed to glean from the testimonies of others who found it just as hard to share something they were so ashamed of. Shame is good in its spiritual place! There is a righteous shame!

Renew My Purity

**God answered prayer! It took time and discipline… years ago the mercy of the Holy Spirit led me out of my wilderness. He did answer prayer. He still answers every day.**

Filth… I am filled with filth and perverse ways.
Why do I think like this?
God, you and I know it is wrong and sinful.
Why do you let this all persist?
I pray and I pray, from the heart of my soul…
cleanse me… renew me… purify.
I pray for you to be my strength and power.
Why does it seem you deny?
I need to be purified by your Son’s blood.
Yet, still I continue in sin.
Why do I betray the love of my life?
Why do I just give in?
God, please, cleanse me, forgive me.
Rebuild me in your hands.
Renew in me a joy for spiritual purity
and help me to take a stand.

6-12-01 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Forgiveness Is A Real Comfort

Sin is real. It’s so real, it’s scary.
It’s scary how it has so much control.
It’s scary how it has a grip on me.
It’s scary that I seem to have a grip on sin.
Whether it’s lying, stealing, or coveting
sin is something that God hates.
And for that reason alone, I know that hell is real.
Eternal condemnation is real.
The reality of it’s existence is scary.
It’s so scary to know it wants me.
It’s so scary to know it waits for me to fail.
How scary to know that Satan can make evil
such a pleasurably and comforting feeling.
It’s scary to know that he smiles in the dark
to know he has yet lured me again.
Forgiveness is so real. It’s a comforting thing.
It too waits for me and smiles,
but thank God because it’s a part of Christ’s love.
It’s so comforting to know it embraces me.
It’s so comforting to know it rescues me.
It’s so comforting to know it cleanses me.
And most of all, it comforts me to know
it strengthens me and makes it possible to resist sin.
Forgiveness makes me a new person.
And that is a real comfort.

7-4-01 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)