Embraced By Wonder

God, am I too dirty?
Am I too stained?
Are there too many consequences
That are always to remain?
I was born in sin,
Then embraced its pleasure.
Now my guilt and shame
Rob me of Your treasure.
Life is not over.
You have me still here.
Help me to understand.
Make my purpose clear.
In Jesus name I pray.
Amen,

4-23-2003 Wednesday
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. Thank You, God, for helping me to KNOW
I am now and will always be Yours!

I Portray Him

God is so kind and loving.
I paint Him cruel and heartless.
He is so patient and understanding.
I portray Him impatient and thoughtless.
He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins.
I betray and unfairly help to create them.
Protective and selfless to sacrifice His life.
Destructive and selfish, I sacrifice Him.
Jesus is the greatest friend we will ever have.
I will only continue to be our worst enemy.
He is someone we can always count on.
How I pray that could be found in me.
But I am human and sinful,
Full of lust and selfish desires.
Please place your trust and faith in Him.
Save us both from the fires.

4-6-2003 Thursday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Your Poetry

Dear Lord, I want to live in Your poetry.
Your words are so beautiful, so powerful…
And when You bless me with them,
I am overwhelmed.
When Your grace flows through my pen,
I am amazed that You would choose me.
I am in awe to be Your poet.
I thank You for that honor, that privilege.
I cherish the gift to share You with others.
May Your message reach those to whom You want.
I know they have touched me often.
Thank You, Father God.
Thank You.
“Your poetry” is still the greatest!
“Your written word” comforts us all!

4-14-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Your Mercy Is A Blessing

How is it you forgive me so many times?
How many times will you forgive me?
I don’t deserve to be forgiven at all!
I am overwhelmed to know you have forgiven me
for even the smallest things.
I am so unworthy of you.
Thank you for loving me despite myself.
I praise you for who you are.
Your mercy is a blessing.
You make me new in you.
Thank you for remaining in me.
Yours forever.

3-29-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

What Will She Think?

She’s been told something so horrible to hear.
She’s been informed of needless information.
Will it be too much to remain friends?
Will it damage our good and godly relation?
I hated having to tell her what I did.
I was trying to obey you with open confession.
Will she think less of me and avoid me?
Can she bear the news of my transgression?
I pray that she doesn’t hold it against me, Lord.
I think so dearly of her.
If I could take away my ugly past, I would.
You of all people know it’s not what I would prefer.
Please help her to forgive me, Lord.
Don’t let her judge me by this deed.
I want to show her and you I’m sorry.
For mercy, I plead.
I pray for her, Lord.
As she has a way of thinking that I do not know.
Help us to grow in sisterhood.
Help us both to let go.

5-18-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Inspiration: a dear friend

We’re Not Letting Go

Struggling to know who You are,
I search for a way to be clean.
Struggling to know who I am,
I search for what my life means.
You and I are supposed to be together
In all that happens each day.
Help me to understand things
That have already happened along the way.
Life is short and uncertain.
You can call for us any time.
Please make peace between us.
I need to know we’re fine.
Help me to fight my demons.
They want to take my soul.
Please make them understand,
You and I are not letting go!

5-17-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
AMEN! ❤

Time To Go Back

It’s time to go back.
I don’t want to God, but it’s time.
It’s not because I want to be lazy.
It’s not because I hate my job.
I love my coworkers.
I even like what we do.
It just means back to no energy.
No energy to write,
to pray,
to read,
to be a good mom,
to be a good church member,
to wear dresses,
to soak up you.
I wish I could support Anthoni and my family
with the gift you gave me
that I love… writing.
But only you can make that happen, God.
Meanwhile, I will serve you wherever you want.

5-15-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Inspiration: Written during a time when I was working so many hours,
for so many years that I struggled to find time to do anything else.

They Need Your Care

The headache, God, please relieve her headache.
His sinuses, Father, please stop his pain.
These people who serve You daily.
They have helped me again and again.
Touch their bodies, Lord.
Touch their lives.
Help them to smile
and bear their strife.
Give them peace.
Give them strength.
Help them to find joy
in You again.
My pastor and his wife
need Your care.
I thank You, God,
to trust You’ll be there.

6-4-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Inspiration: dear friends ❤

SO AMAZED

So amazed by a God who loves me,
I am constantly having to work to believe.
He’s not like all the other frauds
who came only to turn and leave.
So amazed by a church that loves me,
I struggle to grow and receive
because I want to give love too,
not help them to only grieve.
So amazed by a family who loves me,
I struggle to make ours work.
I want to help us love one another.
I hate it when we hurt.
So amazed by a son who loves me,
I am overwhelmed every day
that God would entrust me with His gift
that has brought me joy all along the way.

6-2-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

She’s Won The Heart of All

She’s the woman who won the heart of her God.
She’s the woman who won the heart of her husband.
She won the heart of a man who loves God,
of the heart of a man who won the heart of God, too.
She’s the woman who won the heart of her children,
who holds a place with them that no one else can.
She’s the woman who won the heart of her people,
the church who seeks to win the heart of God.
She’s the woman who won the heart of everyone she’s touched,
and yet to her the most important thing
is the very one she’s won the heart of most…
her Lord and Savior Jesus Christ,
the Savior who has won her heart
and will always treasure it so.
He will never allow her to be taken away from Him.
She’s the woman who won the heart of her God
who has won her heart!

6-4-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Inspiration: A dear friend ❤

Pretty Books

Pretty books… all around me.
So many to read.
I want to read them all.
Interesting,
intriguing,
moving,
funny,
inspirational,
informative.
I want to know these lives,
these stories,
these events,
this knowledge.
More importantly,
I want to grow…
in you…
in the Word…
your Word.
Holy Spirit, help me to read my Sword.
Teach me the secrets.
Give me the peace,
the love and comfort
that can only come from knowing God’s Word.
Help me to indulge within the pages.
Help me to soak up the wisdom.
Help me to discipline my mind.
Watch over my tongue.
Help me to hide every word in my heart
that I might not sin against you!
Father, thank you for the comfort you give
in the Holy Spirit.
In Jesus name I pray and praise, Amen.

3-29-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Praying For Godly Communication

God, this man you ordained has heard my sin.
He knows exactly how I gave in.
He knows I let Satan have a moment of victory.
That there is a deeply ugly part of me.
Please help him not to be afraid of my presence,
Nor judge me with his absence.
Allow him and his wife to know for sure
I would never hurt them. Please reassure!
What I have confessed was sin against you!
I can’t erase that the events were true.
But I can bring them to you and confess.
I have done that openly and choose not to transgress.
Give this man guidance, Lord, that he might guide me.
And give us all peace that I have been set free.
I am no longer in bondage, headed for my grave.
I am your servant. I am your slave.
Praise you, Lord, for this pastor’s dedication.
Help us to continue in godly communication.

5-18-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Poisoned For Life

Temptation… I am poisoned with lustful thoughts.
No matter how hard I try (and succeed) resisting,
I am still consumed with the thoughts
and know the struggle will continue tomorrow.
Between my own sinful experiences,
the knowledge of other’s rendezvous,
and the images viewed from media,
I am overwhelmed with visions of desires.
Satan has known mine weaknesses.
He continues to entice me.
How I resist only God knows,
for it is only in God’s strength that I can.
Spiritual warfare is a battle only God can win.
Thank you, Lord, for being so faithful.
This flesh is poisoned for life from its memories.
You warn us the taste itself feeds the soul
with wickedness and shame.
Be my guard, my strength, and my desire.

3-31-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
God answered these prayers years ago and still does. If you struggle with these things, especially in a world where media, peers, authority figures, even our own experiences choke you day and night…. DON’T GIVE UP! GOD CAN! AND GOD WILL!
GOD LOVES YOU! ❤

NO SALE!

If I have to write all night, I will!
I refuse to give into these thoughts!
I don’t know why I ever entertained them before.
It’s obvious how I was always bought.
When Satan sold me those lies,
I believed every one.
“You won’t be hurting anyone.
You’re just having fun.”
But those were such lies.
I was hurting me and my lover.
Sex cannot keep you from hell.
God will serve no other!
Exodus tells us how abominable we are
to commit such sin.
There is no getting away with it
when God brings our end!
Protect me, Lord, and know my thoughts.
I will not be sold again.
For by Christ’s blood I have been bought.

5-15-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
Unfortunately this was a part of my testimony, and for the ones who read it and tell me it helps them to know they are not alone, and not give up, I post this… even though it is extremely hard to share. I have bought into the lie that my testimony is “inappropriate” for too long. My testimony is what God allowed. This poem is me fighting during very difficult times that I now have such shame for because the love of God saved me. The Holy Spirit changed my way of thinking. Even if His encouraging me to testify helps just one… praise His Holy and Cleansing name! I was blessed to glean from the testimonies of others who found it just as hard to share something they were so ashamed of. Shame is good in its spiritual place! There is a righteous shame!

My Temple Baptist Church Family

Church family…
what does that mean to me?
In the past it has been a place of rejection,
condemnation, and a death threat every Sunday.
But there was nothing to worry about,
they only preached it on Sunday.
They never cared the rest of the week.
When I was an unwed teen mom,
it was a place I was no longer welcome.
When my son was a toddler, it became a place of love.
People were so caring… at church.
But never have I experienced the TV church family.
You know, where they come to visit,
take the kids for events,
cook and bring food over,
and the pastor himself comes to the hospital,
as well as the pastor’s wife herself!
Never… till now!
Temple Baptist Church is this church family!
They are not a televised sitcom church family.
They are MY church family… and I love them.

5-15-03 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)
I am so grateful for the many loving years the Lord gave me and my son, and other family and friends at Temple! My son received his Christian schooling from 6th grade to graduation there, was a part of the P.I.T. Crew (Preacher’s in Training), and chose a Bible College from their influence and their great financial support. God bless each one, Lord. Thank You for making us a part of that permanent church family no matter where we are living or attending church! ❤