Past, Present, and Future Sinner

A sinner trapped in a sinful world.
A saved sinner struggling to resist.
My fellow Christians insist it’s easy.
Yet the temptations seem to persist.
Years have passed since my rebirth,
And every day I fight to obey.
My Lord and Savior was crucified once,
And my renewed sin is how I repay.
My Christian friends would say, Don’t write that!”
“Don’t encourage Satan to continue!”
But I write exactly what is fact.
When Christ himself knows it to be true.
I stumble, I fall, I fail my Savior daily.
Though I dream of perfection, I defect.
My Savior has given me mercy and salvation.
My actions could convince that I reject.
A word or two formed upon this paper.
Only the Holy Spirit can create a masterpiece.
When Christ forgives you of your sins,
Let past, present, and future be your peace.

12-9-2003 Tuesday
Written by Gail Brookshire

Keeping My Loved Ones

Keeping my loved ones,
You care for me through others.
You keep them safe
Till we can see one another.
You keep them happy,
Making sure they’re loved.
I long for when we all
Worship you in heaven above.
Take care if them
As I know You faithfully will.
Let my soul and heart
Be spirit filled.

11-29-2003 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire

I Trusted in Him

He teaches us to love one another,
To be kind to each other,
To live in peace.
He teaches us to hate evil,
To rebuke it,
Of prayer that does not cease.
He teaches us strength,
To believe in Him,
To hold on to Him tight.
He teaches us weakness,
To disbelieve in doubt,
To do what is right.
I stood by my Savior’s side,
I fought to hold His hand,
To never let it go.
I rested in His mighty arms.
I trusted in His lead.
I learned what I did not know.

11-25-2003 Tuesday
Written by Gail Brookshire

My Soul Aches

My soul aches.
It cries for forgiveness.
It cries for compassion,
Understanding.
Yet how can anyone see my pain?
I hide it with a smile.
I joke to mask the evidence.
And my conduct speaks
Completely inaccurate
Of my testimony.
How can anyone know
The betrayal I regret?
How can anyone see my wish
To restore to You the honor?
What can anyone really do about it?
Including myself?
The only one who can see,
Who can know,
Who cares,
And can do anything about it
Is You, Oh Lord.
I pray for Your restoring power.

11-14-2003 Friday
Written by Gail Brookshire

My Dream Come True

I had this dream once.
I dreamt that I was special, that things were going to change.
I dreamt that this special man would come along,
Find me to be special and wait!
I dreamt that this man was after God’s own heart,
And that he would help me to be a woman after God’s own heart.
That he would want me to be a woman after God’s own heart.
That he would be a man I could count on to lead me,
As I believe in Your word that a man us to lead.
I love Your design of men and women.
I longed to be led by this man, despite the fact I feared to trust a man.
And then I ruined it.
The dream turned into a nightmare and then the dream was gone.

I gave away that right to be special to find I wasn’t special at all,
At least not to the man I trusted.
He did not respect my wish to be faithful to God,
To honor my Savior in testimony.
He did not respect the walk I was struggling to continue.
Instead of helping me to be a woman after God’s own heart,
He helped me to be a woman who betrayed God’s own heart.
While I know I could have stopped it,
He stole my trust in thinking he was safe to trust.
And while I became defenseless on God’s behalf,
I made it clear from the beginning where my heart was,
What my intentions were,
And how weak I could be given the wrong circumstances.
Instead of being my strength, he was my weakness.
Instead of making my dreams come true, he took my belief in the dream.

Please give me back the dream.
I don’t want to give up the dream.
I want to believe that someone REALLY thinks I’m special and worth the wait.
I want to know a man who really IS a man after Your own heart.
A man who not only respects me, but oh Lord, respects YOU!
I want a man that I can trust to lead me, to support me,
To want me to BE a woman after Your own heart.
It seems like such an impossible dream,
But Your word tells me that with You nothing is impossible.
If it is what You want FROM me, I know it is what You will give TO me.
Because You DO think I am special.
After all, You made me and love purity!
Be my dream. Make my dream anew. Be my dream come true.

11-14-2003 Friday
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. Thank You, Jesus, for being my dream come true all these years!
YOU make me special!

Word of God

The word of God.
It tells me so much.
How Jesus loves me.
How He loves you.
How He died for us all.
It shares His own words with me.
“Let not your heart be troubled,
Ye believe in God, believe also in me.”
How comforting the word is.
“My peace I leave unto you.”
How loving and kind.
“Loving one another.”
How moving.
“Jesus wept.”
I cannot stop reading the pages.
They speak of a Father’s love and sacrifice.
“For God so loved the world
That He gave His only begotten Son.”
My God loves me
All over these pages.
Thank You, God, for Your Word.
Thank You, Jesus, for obeying it.
Thank You for sharing it with me.

11-13-2003 Thursday
Written by Gail Brookshire