I had this dream once.
I dreamt that I was special, that things were going to change.
I dreamt that this special man would come along,
Find me to be special and wait!
I dreamt that this man was after God’s own heart,
And that he would help me to be a woman after God’s own heart.
That he would want me to be a woman after God’s own heart.
That he would be a man I could count on to lead me,
As I believe in Your word that a man us to lead.
I love Your design of men and women.
I longed to be led by this man, despite the fact I feared to trust a man.
And then I ruined it.
The dream turned into a nightmare and then the dream was gone.

I gave away that right to be special to find I wasn’t special at all,
At least not to the man I trusted.
He did not respect my wish to be faithful to God,
To honor my Savior in testimony.
He did not respect the walk I was struggling to continue.
Instead of helping me to be a woman after God’s own heart,
He helped me to be a woman who betrayed God’s own heart.
While I know I could have stopped it,
He stole my trust in thinking he was safe to trust.
And while I became defenseless on God’s behalf,
I made it clear from the beginning where my heart was,
What my intentions were,
And how weak I could be given the wrong circumstances.
Instead of being my strength, he was my weakness.
Instead of making my dreams come true, he took my belief in the dream.

Please give me back the dream.
I don’t want to give up the dream.
I want to believe that someone REALLY thinks I’m special and worth the wait.
I want to know a man who really IS a man after Your own heart.
A man who not only respects me, but oh Lord, respects YOU!
I want a man that I can trust to lead me, to support me,
To want me to BE a woman after Your own heart.
It seems like such an impossible dream,
But Your word tells me that with You nothing is impossible.
If it is what You want FROM me, I know it is what You will give TO me.
Because You DO think I am special.
After all, You made me and love purity!
Be my dream. Make my dream anew. Be my dream come true.

11-14-2003 Friday
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. Thank You, Jesus, for being my dream come true all these years!
YOU make me special! ❤