God,
Well, I’ve done it again.
I’ve fallen for another temptation.
And all I can think about
Is how much I actually think I’ll miss it when it destroys me.
Why must I imagine such evil and wicked thoughts?
I am not evil,
And I will not give my soul away to anyone but You,
My Sweet Jesus Christ, My Savior.
I love You with my heart and soul,
Yet walk away.
Why am I so resistant of Your love?
Why does it scare me to know You care?
Why does it feel scary to be obligated and mean it?
Isn’t it OK to love someone?
Especially someone who loves You?
What’s so wrong with wanting to love,
And why is it so hard to do when You are so close?

9-6-1990
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. I am so glad You got through to me, Jesus. It took such a long hard road to fall so in love with You, but I am so glad You never gave up! Thank You, for teaching me about true love… in You! ❤ I fall more and more each day! Gladly so!