Twenty Two Days Ago

Twenty two days ago, I asked God to help me to know His will for my life,
And to help me to fulfill it.
No matter how much it would hurt, I wanted to obey my God and trust Him.
I prayed not to allow me to hurt anyone if it were avoidable,
But that no matter what, fear or no fear, pain or no pain, to help me to do His will.

Twenty two days ago, I was so in love, and so was the man who wanted to marry me.
He loved me so much He would have laid down His life for me.
Now today, he couldn’t care less if I were alive.
He no longer wants anything to do with me.
I am the last thing he wants to think about.
In twenty two days, the love even he vowed forever,
And believed himself would never die… is gone.
The Lord’s will was done in our lives.

Twenty two days ago, I was torn between man and God
Because I was afraid I had put man above God.
I wasn’t sure if it was God I needed to trust by trusting the man I love,
Or if it was God I needed to trust by walking away from a man
Whom God did not have planned for my life.
After seeking Godly counsel, praying, and reading the word of God,
The Lord lead me to leave the relationship long enough to think.
If I were to be with this man, he would wait and trust God
To give me the time and peace I needed.
If I were not to be with him, he would be too hurt
And not want the relationship any longer.
It was the way God told me to trust Him in knowing if we were right together.
I even prayed that I would not go back after the relationship if I walked away.
But God said, “It won’t have to be you. If you are obedient enough to walk away on your own, I will be your strength and protect you as you wait. This will be my way of showing you openly just how much he loves you. You won’t have to question any more.”

Twenty two days ago, I hurt the man I love.
I walked away in obedience to my Lord.
I trusted that the man who seemed to be my friend, even when we love each other,
But found that his love was not as strong as even he believed it to be.
He threw away all contact and gave up the years of love.
After only days of sinning against God together and asking for forgiveness of our sins,
Guidance on how to grow stronger, and for God to be our strength forevermore.

Twenty two days ago, this man put himself above God.
His unforgiving heart spoke on behalf of my Lord.
My Lord protected us a from a relationship that didn’t even have enough love to forgive,
A relationship that had such little faith, that it only took days to get over trying again.
Oh we of little faith, how much we grieve our Lord.

Twenty two days ago, the Lord began to renew my strength.
He heard the cry of a child to be obedient and trust in His will.
He saw the servant knelt in faith determined to fight the good fight,
Even if it meant going down while standing ground.
Pain or no pain, the warrior was ready for combat.
God placed His shield upon the solder and said, “My child, follow me.”
Led by the hand of God, the warrior survived the battlegrounds of a hell on earth.
And the child was declared obedient.
God knows the hurt and pain, of every injury that wounded the obedient,
And has carefully seen to her healing.
What peace and comfort He sends to strengthen her.
The Holy Spirit enflames the love of Christ within her heart,
Allowing the warmth to be her assurance.
The Lord will reward those who walk in the Lord.
Her obedience will not be overlooked.

Twenty two days ago, God claimed His child, protected His servant,
And watched His warrior serve in obedience.
The Lord’s will was sought and the Lord’s will was done.
I take joy and confidence in knowing I did just that.
I walked in obedience and trusted my God.
I walked away from a man that God did not have planned for my life.
Thank You, God, for allowing me to come to You in prayer,
For allowing me to seek Your presence.
I praise You for leading me to follow Your will.
You do know what is best for me.
I am grateful that I can trust You and did.
Thank You for Your Holy comfort,
And for allowing the love of Your Son to be first in my life.
He did lay down His life for me.
Thank You, God, for allowing me to be obedient
And seeking Your will twenty two days ago.
I pray that I will be obedient and seek Your will for all of my days.
I love You.

9-26-98 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire
PS. This was written 20 years ago, and I am still just as grateful to my Lord! ❤

3 thoughts on “Twenty Two Days Ago

  1. Reblogged this on gaillovesgod and commented:

    In adding this to my poetry page, it was difficult to read, let alone keep. Yet the Lord convicted me of many friends going through the same situation. It was 20 years ago, but it was still very real, still very hard, and I would STILL make the same decision. God was loving to look out for me! ❤ Praise You, Father God!


  2. Great post! I was in a relationship with a girl who wasn’t a Christian but a member of a religious cult. I didn’t have time for God because she had become my world even though she doesn’t believe Jesus is the Son of God. God suddenly took me out of that relationship. It was the most painful thing, but I see now that it was necessary. God bless you!

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