So much love and strength poured from His heavens.
His spirit lifted mine.
His warmth became mine.
His arms embraced…
and I allowed them to.
I embraced back all I could with my heart.
Though limited, guarded, and sometimes bound,
I was able to stay with Him…
to hear Him…
to listen to Him…
to speak with Him…
and it was good…
it was beautiful.
He showed me compassion…
patience… forgiveness… long suffering…
and insight… much needed insight.
“I’m sorry, Mom, for judging you
when I have no idea what you’ve suffered through…
what you had to survive…
again and again.
Regardless of what you did to me
and all that you allowed to happen,
you saved my life twice
simply by your example.
Salvation is what life is all about.
Health is what it takes to live it.
Thank you for the heads up.”
And then He led me down other paths.
Not all were pleasant…
in fact most weren’t,
But they were all part of
who He made me to be.
They were me.
He has saved me
through and from so such.
Even I wouldn’t believe my story.
Some days I don’t.
It’s a great escape.
But reality is real.
There is no escape.
But there is One who is always there,
in the middle of everything.
Whether you remember or not,
or just take a break from knowing,
He’s there before and after,
and the only ALWAYS with you.
Only He can give the power to those
who would hurt you.
Sometimes He does…
and we wonder why…
or are too angry to think on it,
too ready to give up,
or simply too tired to care anymore.
But when Jesus bore His guilt, grief, and shame,
it wasn’t even His to bear.
He suffered and grieved…
because He loves us…
too much to leave us where we’ve been
led, left, or linger.
He hates the evil…
the evil living inside of us…
and the evil given to us.
But His departure gave us something beautiful…
the Comforter that He promised us.
He lovingly warned that if He did not go to the Father,
that He could not send us the Comforter.
How glad and blessed… and loved…
my soul has been…
my heart has cherished…
my mind renewed…
since He came into my life.
Because of His comfort…
I can feel hope..
I can believe in hope…
and I do Hope…
in the day that God the Father
will finally remove His permissions
from the evil doers…
His tolerance of filth…
and will allow His Son,
to come riding back on His horse…
to fight for me…
to fight for them…
to fight for you…
to fight for us all.
No longer will darkness have power.
His Light that fills heaven so bright
that there is no need for the sun
will put darkness in its proper place.
Evil will be put in its proper place.
Designated destinations will teach evil
all that it unjustly taught others.
God will no longer allow the memories
to have any place in our heart, mind, or soul.
Finally, we will not even think of ourselves.
We will be so in awe of Him.
prostrated on our face…
in perfectly heath bodies…
that will no longer steal our joy..
and never again
rob us of our fellowship with Him.
Holy, Holy, Holy…
forever we will praise.
God, I long for it now!
Thank you for the Hope.
Thank you for the day…
even the unpleasant thoughts…
as You only use them to teach me…
to comfort me…
to remind me.
Help me to never forget.
And forgive me when I do.
There will be a day
when our mind is completely yours!

1-5-17 written by Gail Brookshire